“Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.”
Psalm 42:11 NIV
There are times when this world seems truly dark. And there are times when the darkest parts are inside yourself. What do you do then?
I’m at a point in my life where I have watched my friends experience many joys and triumphs in their careers and realationahips and personal lives. At the risk of sounding super whiny or ungrateful or petty, let me clarify- I’m not any of those things. My joy for them is genuine. I’ve seen gleaming rings put on fingers, heard newborn cries, and rung the doorbell to a friend’s new home. I have heard the stories of God’s greatness in their lives.
But I have forgotten it in mine. I have let jealousy and anger creep into my heart. They tentatively pitch a tent. I feel bad for them, so I throw them scraps of my heart. They grow stronger. Then they begin to get comfortable until they’ve built a very pretty house indeed.
The miracles of yesterday are still miracles today. I hear these words reverbating through my soul, and I know it’s time to kick jealousy and anger back to hell where they belong.
I will stand on God’s promises. On His truth. On His word. Enemy be damned. I will remember all that God has allowed and empowered me to do.
I’ve been able to do and see things most people only dream of- or are too scared to dream of at all. No, I haven’t taken every risk thrown at me or chased every reckless adrenaline rush, but I have filled my life with memories I hold dear and people I love.
I have breathed mountain air. I have inhaled salty scents from the coast of Ireland. My skin has dried from heat in the desert. My clothes have been soaked in every fiber from the rain in the city. I have sworn I have never been more hot. I have decried I have never been more cold. I have promised I could eat a horse. I have promsed I could not eat another bite ever again.
Above it all and through it all and despite it all, I have been blessed.
So, soul, let’s get one thing straight. You belong to Jesus Almighty. The enemy has fought for you, but he has lost. Hold tight. Your Might Defender stands guard tonight and tomorrow and for this moment and for the next and the rest of eternity. You belong to Jesus. So put all of your hope in Him. Don’t withhold a single drop. Rest in Him. Praise Him. Jesus is enough.